Judas (not Judas Iscariot, but the other disciple with that name) said to him, “Lord, why are you going to reveal yourself only to us and not to the world at large?” Jesus replied, “All who love me will do what I say. My Father will love them, and we will come and make our home with each of them. (John 14:22-23)
Relate: I wonder how many people view God as some sort of character like the Phantom of the Opera? If life is a stage, they consider God some mysterious individual, perhaps just a rumor, that is always behind the scenes sometimes helping things to run smoothly (miracles, answered prayers, etc) and sometimes muddling things up (disease, natural disasters etc). There have been those who have spent a lot of time money and effort to actually get a glimpse of this man behind the scenes. Most have completely failed. Even those who have seen a brief glimpse from a distance have really only seen a mask.
Carl Sagan describes Him as something like the invisible, incorporeal, heatless, silent dragon in the garage:
He: I have a dragon in my garage.
She: Really? Let’s see it.
He: You can’t. My dragon is invisible.
She: OK, so can I touch it?
He: Nope. My dragon is incorporeal.
She: Fine. My uncle has some heat sensitive glasses. Dragon’s breathe fire so…
He: Won’t work. My dragon is heatless.
She: Then I guess we will have to be very, very quiet so we can listen to it’s breathing.
He: That won’t work either. My dragon is more silent than a ninja.
Over and over I’ve heard people say something along the lines of, “If only God would reveal Himself to me I would believe in Him.” Garbage. Hogwash. The other Judas asks Jesus in His final hours of this life, “Why are You going to reveal Yourself to us, but not to everybody?” Jesus’ answer? “Because you love me.”
React: I am absolutely convinced of these two truths: 1) God will not give you more of Himself than you desire. 2) God will give you as much of Himself as you desire. God longs to be with us. He wants to reveal Himself to us and to be in relationship with us. Despite what John Donne writes in his fourteenth holy sonnet, which I love, God is not a rapist. He will not force Himself on us.
So when things are looking dry, when I feel like God is distant. When it seems like my prayers are bouncing off the ceiling and when I listen I hear only distant silence… the real question is what is getting in my way with getting closer to God? What is wrong with my pursuit of Him? Is there something else in my life at that time that I feel like I need more? If so, God, help me to lay it down.
God, give me a greater desire for You. Help me to want You more. Help me to want to want You more. You are the rewarder of those who earnestly seek You. Help my seeking to truly be earnest. I long for You and You alone.