O Lord, how long will this go on? Will you hide yourself forever? How long will your anger burn like fire? Remember how short my life is, how empty and futile this human existence! No one can live forever; all will die. No one can escape the power of the grave. Interlude
Lord, where is your unfailing love? You promised it to David with a faithful pledge. Consider, Lord, how your servants are disgraced! I carry in my heart the insults of so many people.Your enemies have mocked me, O Lord; they mock your anointed king wherever he goes.Praise the Lord forever! Amen and amen! (Psalm 89:46-52 NLT)
Relate: I am part of a Facebook group made up of Christian women sharing their joys and prayer requests. A woman posted today, and it broke my heart. It was not a post about sickness, death, or financial ruin. It was a post asking a question similar to the Psalmist. She expressed her struggle to feel God’s love in her life.
When I read today’s scripture, the line, “Lord, where is your unfailing love?” jumped out at me because I, like the woman who posted on Facebook today, and like the Psalmist, had asked the same question. For several years, I had called and called to God and wondered where he was.
I felt defeated and worn out with life and unable to find God’s unfailing love in the center of it all. On top of that, I felt like a failure because I could not connect to God’s love. I wondered if God had forgotten me or turned his back on me. I knew all the theology, I just couldn’t see where God’s unfailing love was in my own life.
React: A closer look at the Psalm demonstrates something incredible. The Psalmist, without any indication of a change in circumstances or an amazing encounter with God ends the Psalm, “Praise the Lord forever! Amen and amen!”
I was so hung up on not feeling God’s love for me personally, I found it hard to sing songs of praise and worship. I was focused on me, not on Him. I wanted to be close to him, but I was too busy questioning him and feeling abandoned to praise. I was hurt, and I didn’t want to sing, “Praise the Lord forever!”
When I finally hit rock bottom and created a mess in my life where I needed God’s grace and mercy, I saw that he had been present all along. He had been steady and unchanging. My head and my heart had battled so hard, and I had lost focus on God’s awesome and amazing nature. His faithful love had been with me. I wish I had learned to sing, “Praise the Lord forever!”and meant it when I was hurting and feeling alone.
It is in our praise we are brought into the presence of God. It is in our faith and acceptance of God’s love that we are drawn closer. The crying of, “Where are you?” is natural and human. The cry of, “Praise the Lord forever!” is touching the divine through faith in his unchanging nature that endures beyond our circumstances and our self centered hearts.
If you, like I did, find yourself asking, “Lord, where is your unfailing love?” the answer is “Amen and amen.” He is with you. He loves you. He has not abandoned you. It is not a mystery or a hidden wonder. The God worthy of all praise forever is right beside you. It is my prayer that you will be able to lift your heart and open yourself to sing his praise.
God, I pray you will help us to praise you because you are God, even when we don’t see. You are a holy and majestic God, yet you love us in ways we cannot begin to imagine. I pray you will open our eyes, our hearts, and our minds to welcome your unfailing love. I thank you for your love. I thank you that you never left my side, even when I struggled against you in my hurt and doubt. Please help those who are wondering where you are to understand your awesome and unending love for them. Amen.