I will never forget this awful time, as I grieve over my loss. Yet I still dare to hope when I remember this: The faithful love of the LORD never ends! His mercies never cease. Great is his faithfulness; his mercies begin afresh each morning. I say to myself, “The LORD is my inheritance; therefore, I will hope in him!” (Lamentations 3:20-24)
Though he brings grief, he also shows compassion because of the greatness of his unfailing love. For he does not enjoy hurting people or causing them sorrow. (Lamentations 3:32,33)
Relate: I have been in a long season of healing, most likely because I experienced a long season of grief. God restored me, yet he is also continually restoring me. Like the author of Lamentations, there are awful times I will never forget. I grieved over losses, and at times I grieve them anew. Healing has been a process.
Several years ago, my ability to hope in the faithful love of the LORD dwindled to almost nothing. I desperately struggled and grasped at my waning faith. The text says, “Yet I still dare to hope…” Hope in the hurt takes courage. Believing is a risk because you become vulnerable while broken. You are saying, “I trust you. I trust you are faithful and merciful.” Those are hard and bold words to utter in the middle of grief. They are words I could not utter with confidence. I was afraid to believe and be wrong because I feared the pain of disappointment. I came to realize, I could hold my hurt and grief or I could dare to hope.
React: When I hit a low point, and approached God with a heart of repentance for my lack of trust, God was faithful, compassionate, and unfailing. Although a majority of the healing was completed a couple years ago, this year I have been reminded not of the grief, but of the hope. “Unfailing love” are the two words that have jumped from the scriptures to my heart again and again. Maybe I have needed to remember that the experience of grace, compassion, and unfailing love is new every morning. God is faithful, even when I am not.
Will you dare to hope when grief is great?
God, I am so grateful for your faithfulness. You hold me and provide for me. I know you have always been there. You do not abandon me. You are all I need, even when it hurts. I pray you will give me courage to always hope in you. Amen.