I Wish I’d Never Been Born


Why was I laid on my mother’s lap? Why did she nurse me at her breasts? Had I died at birth, I would now be at peace. I would be asleep and at rest. Job 3:12-13 (NLT)

Read: Job 1, Job 2, Job 3, I Corinthians 14:1-17, Psalms 37:12-29, Proverbs 21:25-26

Relate: Life is full of suffering. Some understand this more acutely than others. Sometimes the pain of living can be so great it causes the individual to wish for life to be over. The only answer seems to be the reprieve death offers. Job was a man that could relate to this feeling. He had literally lost everything short of his very life. In his sorrow, Job refused to curse God, but he definitely expressed his anguish, and he clearly had no answers to explain why God allowed him to experience great turmoil.

React: The remarkable part of this story is not that a Biblical “hero” expresses his wish to never have been born. The Bible is the story of God’s interaction with mankind. This is a continuing story, and mankind has experienced deep heart ache since Adam and Eve left the garden. There are no emotions God does not understand.God is big enough to handle the full range of our emotions. We can give him all we have got, and it will not change who He is in the least.

The real highlight of this story is God’s presence. He shows up. He doesn’t answer Job’s questions in the way we would expect. He simply makes it clear to Job that He is God, and His ways are higher than ours. He formed the earth, and He hung the stars. He is beyond our comprehension, but He is not beyond showing up in the middle of the hurt.

I am not going to pretend to have the answers to your suffering. I am not God. I was not there when He laid the foundations of the world. I am just a broken person, who has felt the weight of living and experienced what it looks like for God to show up in the center of the hurting. Go ahead and tell God where you are at, and when you are finished, ask Him to meet you there.

Dear God, thank you for a love so big. I am in awe of who you are. You are beyond my understanding, yet you stoop to meet me where I am. I cannot begin to express my gratitude for a love that surrounds me when I struggle to see the beauty of the life I have been given. I praise you for all that you are, and I desire more of you. Please, make your presence known to those that feel alone in the aching and broken places. I love you. Amen.

11 thoughts on “I Wish I’d Never Been Born

  1. The story of job and his ability to be honest with god about his feelings always touched my heart. Sometimes we all go through some serious trials and tribulations. Knowing God is there, through all the experiences we face, no matter how you feel is always refreshing. I will never give up on God because he has helped me through many battles…Thanks for writing this post.

  2. Thank you for thinking of those that mourn.You will be comforted. It has been a blessing to me to comfort those that mourn and have lost. I enjoyed this post very much.

    Peace to you

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