Before the Passover celebration, Jesus knew that his hour had come to leave this world and return to his Father. He had loved his disciples during his ministry on earth, and now he loved them to the very end. (John 13:1)
Read: 1 Chronicles 3:19-24, Ezra 2:1 – 4:5,
Relate: “He loved them to the very end.” This is now my third attempt to write this. Twice I have felt what I was trying to work in an analogy or an illustration was simply inadequate. I need a way to do the impossible. I need something that can help us to even begin to try and understand the feeling that I am simply unable to talk about. It is that smile that instantaneously appears on your face when you see her name on the ID when the phone is ringing. It is that one line in that one movie that is guaranteed to bring on a torrent of tears no matter how many times you’ve already watched it. It’s that warm feeling when she, half asleep, nuzzles against you on the couch. The problem is, for each and every one of us, there is a different one thing that will trigger this moment. If we aren’t in love, or if that love is going through a difficult rough patch, it is very hard to artificially generate that feeling. I am not necessarily talking about the feeling you get when you know you love someone. It is more that warmth that envelops you when you know, somehow for some odd unfathomable reason, they love you.
If you know the feeling I am talking about, grab it. Hold it. For a brief moment lean back and smile as you bask in it. Do your best in your mind’s eye to imagine the impossible. Take that feeling and multiply it a hundredfold. That is just the shallowest imagining of a beginning glimpse of a taste of God’s overwhelming love for you. I’ve got a million and one reasons why God shouldn’t love me. He knows my mind. He knows my thoughts and my motivations for everything I do and even everything I wish I could do if I knew I would never get caught. He sees me when I think nobody’s looking. He knows my faults and my foibles better than anyone. Yet he loves me still. His love is unconditional.
React: Just think about it. “He loved them to the very end.” Do you realize what this end entails? He loved them when they argued and squabbled about who would be “greatest”. He loved them as he began to wash their feet because none of them was willing to bend their own pride enough to carry out this necessary task. He loved them when they all fell asleep as He wrestled in prayer with His own fears in the garden. He loved them even as they all bugged out when He was put in handcuffs. He loved them even as they started cursing up a storm to strangers trying to prove that they had nothing to do with Him. He loved them to the very end… even as one of them turned around and sold him out for a few bucks to His worst enemies.
There’s an abundance of reasons even before this end as to why His disciples were unlovable. They are going to give Him plenty of reasons for a spiritual “breakup”. They are going to present Him with an abundance of causes for an emotional “divorce”. He is going to love them through it all. He loved them. He loves us. If you are anything like me there is an abundance of reasons popping up in your mind as to why God shouldn’t love you. There’s a laundry list of reasons why He couldn’t love you. He does. Through it all, God loves you deeply and passionately right up to the very end. Nothing, absolutely nothing you have ever done or will ever do could ever separate you from that love. No actions, emotions, no events, not the past, present or future could ever separate you from His love. It is that deep. It is that enduring. So what are you going to do about it?
God, I am so grateful for Your love. Its, its… overwhelming. If I never learn another thing, let me never lose sight of the truth that Your love for me goes far beyond words, or feelings, actions or time. Let me walk in the confidence that nothing… nothing could ever separate me from Your love. You love me. You love me. To the very end of time, You love… me.
8 thoughts on “To The Very End”
The wonder of agape love… simply overwhelming!
It is impossible to fathom Christ’s love for us… The apostle Paul says it best when he pens this, in…
Ephesians 3:16-20… that He would grant you, according to the riches of His glory, to be strengthened with might through His Spirit in the inner man, 17 that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith; that you, being rooted and grounded in love, 18 may be able to comprehend with all the saints what is the width and length and depth and height— 19 to know the love of Christ which passes knowledge; that you may be filled with all the fullness of God.
20 Now to Him who is able to do exceedingly abundantly above all that we ask or think, according to the power that works in us,
Notice from verse 19…”to know the love of Christ which passes knowledge”…
Blessings in Christ, bruce
True sign of agape love. In respective of our shortcomings and flaws, God still loves us. I will no longer feel ashamed to go to him in prayers because his grace is sufficient for me. I Would pray believing that he has forgiven me because he loves me. thank you for sharing.
I hope to stop back often for a meditation on His Word from time to time. Good work!
God’s love is so amazing and incredible and I love that song
Very, very powerful … very poignant and moving. I’m rarely moved to tears, but this devotional did just that: It moved me to joyful, wonder-filled tears. Thank you and God bless you.
Thus far in my relationship with Jesus, Abba Father, and the Holy Spirit, I am learning more and more the language of His love. From the Church, a lot more Christianese. I wasn’t churched. But, Christianese seems to have arisen from family in Christ who were.
Christianese is not all rooted in the gospel. There are the influences of denominational traditions and then, with those even, generational. Its not a criticism I’m giving either. Learning about this helps me understand why I encounter a lot of brothers and sisters in Christ who do not even know who I mean when I say Abba.
I’ve had conversations with brothers and sisters who were met with a lot of legalism that sorta mucked up their ability to receive His love without experiencing guilt, or condemnation.
Either way, all that to say, I am super thankful that a revelation of Abba’s love has helped me grow leaps in bounds in this area of receiving His love, in intimacy with Him–no matter what. In the word, we are quite often given an intimate portrait of the Father–more than just a mere father, but a Daddy. So, I believe it is significant for all of us children of God that Jesus said, “Abba, Father,” when He did.
To go boldly before the throne–its the liberation He wants us to experience in Christ. Its not licentiousness. Neither is it without holy grievance in times when we are going kicking and screaming and cussing and having walked maligned.
What is, most importantly and with gradation, is that we do so without a stirring of condemnation holding us back from Him.
Something about what you shared in this post stirred me to share this and I hope you find it in context and I hope its encouraging to your readers. You are truly encouraging me with your meditations. Again, eternal thanks!
Thank you for these words, this song, this closing prayer.