I Am Sodom

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Sodom’s sins were arrogance, gluttony, and laziness, while the poor and needy suffered outside her door. She was haughty and committed detestable sins, so I wiped her out, as you have seen. (Ezekiel 16:49-50)

Read: Ezekiel 16:42-17:24, Hebrews 8:1-13, Psalm 106:13-31, Proverbs 27:7-9

Relate: Sometimes I can be a bit arrogant. I wish I could say that last statement in all honesty. I can’t. A far more truthful assessment would be to say that I am quite arrogant most of the time. If I wanted I could go along with modern Western culture and dress the truth up in fancy clothing. I could say I have a healthy self-image. I am confident. My seeming pride is really just a by-product of being extroverted. Whatever. The brass tax is that I am arrogant. There is no getting around the truth.

I can also be gluttonous. Just yesterday I treated myself to a nice meal of Iskender (pictured above) before shooting over to Starbucks to do some writing. There I bought myself a venti caramel macchiato. I grabbed a bag of chips and a liter of fuse tea for the commute home. Once I hopped off the Marmaray and was waiting to switch to the bus, I also bought a tavuk doner (chicken gyro… sort of). The Iskender all by itself was more than enough to carry me through the night. Everything else served only to support my mid-level expansion.

I am lazy. I can literally sit for an entire day curled up in a chair with a good book reading while my to-do list goes ignored. I am a master procrastinator and the harder a task might be to accomplish, the more I will put off getting it done.

It is easier to see the needs of those around me that I do nothing about than it ever was in Ezekiel’s time. By “outside her door” Ezekiel was talking about those she (Sodom) had the power to do something about. In our day and age, we have fewer and fewer excuses for not doing something about the needs we see and hear about. Every day I am passing by refugees at multiple intersections, parks, and walk bridges. Because I see them so often, I become blind and calloused to the need they represent.

I am haughty. Where arrogance is an overemphasis of my own supposed greatness, haughtiness is an overemphasis of the weakness or failings in others. Sometimes I feel like I have an internal radar whose sole job is to seek out and exploit any weaknesses I can find in others. Sometimes I think that radar is far, far too good at its job.

React:  When I am honest with myself, there is no way I can say anything except, “I am Sodom.” Just as I pointed a mirror of their sins on my own life, I could do the same pointing to how the western culture I was raised in, particularly American culture, is guilty of them all as well.

Jesus did the same when he spoke against the towns he had preached in. He said that it will be worse for them on the day of judgment than for Sodom and Gomorrah. They were a very religious people, but they weren’t followers of Jesus. Sodom had never heard the gospel but Israel did… America has… so have I. The people of Jesus’ time were worse than Sodom. America and most of the Western world today is worse than Sodom. If not for the grace of God, I am worse than Sodom. What about you?


Dear God,
I repent. I am sorry for my arrogance, my laziness, my apathy, and my pride. I am sorry for my sin. Help me to change. Help me to stop being so religious and start becoming a better follower of You. Help me also to stop focusing on the “detestable” sins of others. Instead, help me to focus on Your beauty and holiness. Slowly, gradually, step by step, and day by day I ask that You would let that holiness and beauty be reflected in me that the world will see. Help me to remember that it is Your kindness that leads us to repentance.

30 thoughts on “I Am Sodom

  1. I loved this writing. I don’t think it matters what region or country your in everyone thinks their sins are less than others sin so we can feel superior . I too am Sodom but I am learning to be Esther .

    One day at a time ,one hug at a time , one kid word at a time.

    It is so hard to be God like when you haven’t known anyone that actually lived it. But I have my friend Joanna. She is as close as anyone I have ever met.

    We are opposites in our backgrounds, our race , our marital status, our life experiences and she is 25 years younger and a new American citizen. She is my sister , my teacher my Christian teacher.

    If you believe the old saying ” You can’t teach an old dog new tricks” you would be so wrong.

    We can grow and change and be better people . I am trying every day and every day I pray for guidance and for forgiveness for my flaws and sins.

  2. I too am Sodom, no excuses, no justification. The shame is real, the change seems impossible.
    I see myself caught up in so much worldly behavior and I feel powerless to stop.

  3. The song by The Dave Matthews Band, To Much, is reflection of myself. Though I know better the sin of gluttony creeps again and again because my faith gets weak. That is when I turn to God to overcome this weakness.

  4. You know, Beejai, you nailed it. You are so open to the Holy Spirit’s leading and grateful you put it in succinct words. Yes, I’m guilty. So Sodom. The Holy Spirit has been dealing with my heart lately, about many issues. Yes, we American Believers are truly guilty of all these. May we see who we are and repent! Thanks for sharing your heart.

  5. Yeah, the body really needs to take a personal inventory and get involved as we should, not as our anger or idealism wants. I, too often respond to my flesh and fail to yield to the Holy Spirit first.

  6. Your honesty and openness is an inspiration, I would praise you but I know you offer this admission in a humble response to God’s will. Thank you and may others follow your lead. I am arrogant and prideful and I continue to let my flesh lead me away from His will. I humbly ask God to forgive my trespasses and to make my heart hungry for his word. Amen

  7. This is good theology. There’s no “hierarchy of sin” in the Bible, no indication that any one sin is lesser in God’s sight than another. That’s why “being a good person” isn’t enough; even small sins are enough to remove the “blameless” label that we need to enter God’s presence. The New Testament uses language like that to describe where we need to be.

    And Jesus accomplishes it all. Every sin, he forgives. Every sin, he teaches us and strengthens us to rise above. Thanks be to him.

    Good post! Your honesty is stark and encouraging.

  8. Thank you for this Beejai. Perfect timing in America’s Season of Thankfulness to do an introspection of these Sodom characteristics in ourselves and become a little more thankful and helpful to others.

  9. Well said. Should inspire some soul searching honesty. I appreciate the prayer too. We cannot be set free from Sodom without the cross. Blessings.

  10. BJ, you’re right, I’ll take your word about you and I can confirm about me. There is a gulf between the holiness of God and ourselves that when stripped bare leaves me speechless, defenceless. My only hope is the greatness of God’s love that He demonstrated through His Son’s obedience to His will. That’s why “every knee shall bow, every tongue will acknowledge….” Thank you for your brutal honesty, thank you for reminding me. It’s all about grace, always has been. God’s blessings on you and all of us my brother. – Bruce

  11. This is SO true! Everyday, we judge others of being lazy and arrogant but never really take the time to look at ourselves… I especially love what you said in the prayer- we need to all focus on being less “religious” and be a follower of Yeshua.

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